A friend posted a blog entitled, “Living Single in a Couple’s World”. I found it quite interesting because I am single, and most of my friends are, too. At least, that’s how I perceive it. I suppose if I really tallied up everyone I know, I might find that I DO know more folks that are coupled, but why would I bother?
When I had been divorced for a year or two, I began to lament that “Only men over 50 and in marginal health are attracted to me.” That was my experience. It ticked me off. Then one day, I was smacked in the face with the reality: by saying that over and over, I was creating it in my life. YIKES.
I changed my mindset. I told my mother, “You know, younger men find me irresistible.” I told my friends, “Older guys used to hit on me all the time, but now I’m finding that younger men are really attracted to me.” I said things like that for a few weeks, maybe a month. I felt silly as I said it, and passed it off as kind of a joke rather than a matter of fact. Here’s the crazy part: in about a month, 3 men in their 20’s hit on me. Seriously hit on me. I told them how old I was and they said that they didn’t care.
Now I am not a cradle robber but I am not criticizing women who prefer significantly younger men. Frankly, I think that it’s about time that the “age is just a number” concept began to be applicable to both genders. I just have no interest in it. I have a hard time finding a man my own age that is mature enough for my liking. The point is, I found that whatever came out of my mouth began to come into my life. When I bellyached about older men, I got older men. When I bragged about younger men, they appeared, too.
If I think I live in a world of people who are mostly like me, I will see people who are mostly like me; single. If I think I live in a world of people who are not like me, I will see couples everywhere. If I think all men are pigs, I will see pigs. I happen to think that most men are good guys, and guess what? Either scum bag men avoid me, or I just don’t happen to know any (okay, maybe a couple). I know a whole bunch of really nice, loving and kind men.
I try to live in a world of abundance. Sometimes I get stressed out when I see the waves around me; my chest gets tight, it’s hard to breathe and I want to burst into tears. I feel like a total loser and I’m falling apart. I feel ridiculous stating that I am incredibly valuable, successful and highly sought-after as a Project Manager. But I know that if I can begin to see myself that way, I will become it.
So here is my affirmation for today (feel free to borrow it):
I am an amazingly capable woman. I am really proud of the work I do at this wonderful company. My coworkers respect me and my boss adores me. I am grateful for my generous salary that reflects my high value. I have more than enough money to pay my bills, save for my daughter’s education, give generously to charity and save for my future. I am truly blessed in every aspect of my life. I must be one of God’s most favorite daughters, because He spoils me so very much.
I will choose for THIS to be my truth.
As far as the single vs. couple issue goes; I feel the need to be single at this point in my life. I am complete, whole, and full just as I am. I have many people that I love and that love me. There are some things that I need to work on in myself right now and it is easier for me to do this without the distraction of a partner. When the time is right, I will add a statement about romance into my affirmation. For now, this is enough.
I am enough.
There is an abundance of everything I need in my life already. I will open my eyes fully and embrace the truth that benefits me. It is everywhere, I simply need to choose to see it.
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